Hair today gone tomorrow.
WHAT THE ACTUAL F.
I am standing in the shower, breast milk is pouring out of my undrunk ballooning boobs. My body is wounded, and still aches from being sliced open. I haven't slept in 12 weeks and this is about the 5th time i've been freed from child to wash my hair since my pre birth (totally wasted) blow dry. When suddenly I pull my hand away to discover a clump of hair comes with it. When I say clump I don't mean the few strands that clog up the plug hole after a few months use, I mean 'could create a full wig for barbie and her mates' CLUMP.
'Ok, so this must be the whole losing your hair thing i've read about' I think. Do not panic. But then I brush my hair the hairbrush pulls away another clump (theres kens wig). As I dry it I leave the floor looking like i've just shaved an afghan hound*. I run downstairs in tears and immediately call my 'she who has given birth to many' sister telling her i'm balding whilst blubbering. Of course it happened to her too. You see its wildly common, 40%/50% of women actually. The surge in your pregnancy hormones stops your hair falling out whilst you are pregnant, then around the 3 month mark post baby your hormones return to normal levels, which allows the hair to fall out and return to its normal cycle. But that doesn't make it feel any better.
As a new mum you already have so much that you are dealing with in terms of confidence. You're learning how to be a human again one that looks after another tiny human, you've essentially been reborn yourself and you're learning how to walk in this strange new world and facing others is already something you are frightened of let alone facing others WHILST YOU'RE BALD. I possibly quite naively didn't realise how hair could play such a factor in your confidence, but it does and I don't believe that is gender specific either. It is a part of who you are.
It kept falling out for about 4 months i'd say in total, it was hard to deal with, so much so that I stopped washing and brushing my hair regularly. I would just leave it in a matted top knot in the fear more would go. Dry shampoo became my best friend, we were already on great terms so this just solidified our friendship. Then all of a sudden it just stopped. Like a baby phase, this too did pass. Then the regrowth began. I suppose when you're 8 months down the line and have a sort of whispy tuft of hair poking out the side of your head but your hormone levels are more in line, you have more perspective on things. I'm so lucky to have such a beautiful, funny, loving little baby, and to have hair that is growing back. But in those dark newborn days, when you really cannot see light at the end of the tunnel losing your hair can feel like you're losing your mind.
Here are some good products that I used to keep me sane
(NB. Dry shampoo does not help your hair regrowth, but it helped me feel clean whilst I washed it less to prevent so much loss!)
(Footnote: this is a type of dog, not a nickname for my V)